fuck the world

imreallyugly @ 2004-02-03T19:05:00

2004-02-04T00:05:31Z

dios mio!

imreallyugly @ 2004-01-22T10:23:00

2004-01-22T15:26:26Z

no more journal.

Missing you

2004-01-20T19:22:45Z

Come home, I miss you. being on the other side of the country can't be good for us. Only 6 weeks, 42 days, 1008 hours, 60,480 minutes, 3,628,800 seconds, it fells like an eternity...

imreallyugly @ 2004-01-09T10:46:00

2004-01-09T16:34:54Z

I met a girl at school yesterday. she is really cool. We are set to go out tonight, I'm most definitely looking forward to it! Her name is Brittany, well I think I'm going back to sleep.

life so far....

2003-12-17T19:03:26Z

so updating to remind myself of how good things are kinda going, but how good can things actually be with a broken heart? my band just got signed onto a southamerican record label, Ashes to Sea will be traveling to southameriaca to tour and release a e.p. in early 2004. we are extremely excited! thank YOU for doing exactly what you said you wouldn't so many times over, you aren't worth it...

awaiting happiness

2003-12-08T23:02:29Z

People change, I guess feelings do to. I guess I just didn't expect it to happen so fast. I can't do this anymore, wait by the phone for your call. Thats all I wanted, is just for you to call. Its to late now your gone, and so am I. Never again will I let my feelings get the best of me. I'm tired of being ignored, i don't deserve that no one does. if you cared like you say you do, you wouldn't lie. "Why are you worried?" "I'm worried about losing you." "You won't, I promise."

imreallyugly @ 2003-11-24T09:46:00

2003-11-24T14:43:55Z

man weekend sucked didnt get to spend time with the one person i wanted to maybe some oher time hope you have a good day im honestly not moving away soon, very soon. not going to miss much, not much to miss in this town, only a few people. johnny got kicked out, cause of me.

fuck you

2003-10-17T19:28:34Z

sometimes i really wonder about you how you can say so many things and then do other things i guess what im trying to say is.....fuck you
you have you gun pointed at my heart......its my least vulnerable part, you've already shot it with lies
"sad face"

imreallyugly @ 2003-10-03T10:37:00

2003-10-03T14:42:24Z

call me for directions 6994483

party at mikes

2003-10-03T03:42:23Z

yo yo yo whats up all my nigs just posting to let you kn ow there will be be a little get together tomorrow night at my house my parents are going outta town for the weekend and some peeps are invited if you dont know who you are call my cell phone 10/3/03 and ill tell you if you can come all ladies are invited if your hott lol anyway the only things i ask is that you be nice and dont be to messy and either bring a 6 pack or money for one aight well im going

lately

2003-09-22T14:37:52Z

sorry i havent posted mr journal i have been really busy, i put together a new band but every where i turn things fall apart, im singing and screaming and its new to me so im kinda scared to do it but we had the most amazing drummer but he was only 14 and he got in some trouble so he cant play anymore and everytime we have practice everyone just tells jokes or talks about girs they want to fuck, im realy getting sick of it all i want is to play music that im passionate about and i an see myself doing that with these guys considering how they are good friends of mine but there not serious....HEY ANYONE NEED A NEW SINGER? but anyway kim? thank you for calling me gorgeous i have low self esteem but how do you know who i am? i miss katie right now, we went to dinner and a movie she was trying to get me drunk at the restaurant but a draft was like 1.50 wasnt feeling that the other thing about the band is we have a show on oct. 31 and im afraid w wont be ready and we will make fools of ourselves i dont want to do that well ive got to go to class comp 1 is a bitch

imreallyugly @ 2003-09-15T10:34:00

2003-09-15T14:44:16Z

i hate you all except katie, johnny, critter, amber, jamie, and kat, and the iheks

imreallyugly @ 2003-08-15T00:41:00

2003-08-15T04:42:10Z

sorry for all the typos i was tring to finish so i can go smoke a cig!!!!!

oorrllaannddoo

2003-08-15T04:37:35Z

well my friends orlando was a success i went i saw i conqered i met reggie and the full efect midtown MY CHEMICAL ROMANCE and SENCES FAIL!!!!! the whole time midtown was playing i was up front making fun of them flicking them off and such and it just so happened that i knew all the words and was wearing a midtown shirt so i took off my shirt {ewww ladies its getting hott in hure(no worries i was wearing two)} and threw it on stage well at the end of the song he called me and myfriends stupid fags and such, we laughed and then at the end of there se on the last song he jumped in to my group and sang in my friends face who also was flicking them off so i jumped on his back and screemed lyrics in his face funny well afterwords he came up to me and said "hey man thanks for the support!" ????? wtf i made fun of them the whole time when i asked him to sign the shirt i threw on stage and he signed it -mike, your a stupid fuck, thatnks for all the support, bitches are sluts- then he too wear that shirt cause he didnt like it and told me not to wear that shirt cause he didnt like it but i didnt have money to get a new one so he cave me one? i laughed and then he hung out with me? well reggie came on and fucking rocked the house reggie let me sing a little bit of one of the songs then latter in the set he jumped down and sang in my face and hugged me then after the show westarted talking and he was telling me of how some kid was making fun of midown the whle time they were on stage and i realized he was talking about me and we both had a great laugh then the lead singer of MY CHEMICAL ROMANCE left a not on my phone for ian shewma just saying hi and shit but i thought it was great and i sat down with the lead singer from HOT ROD CIRCUT!!!!!! who played guitat for reggie and the other guitarest for reggie and exchanged sex stories it was so funnnnn well on a more serious note im really looking to put together a band its all i have in this world without music i see myself dieing accomplishing nothingand that depresses me deeply i hate it well i think im going to sing? werd combo for luke williams and my friend zach hes like 23 and has been playing like 17 yrs he is crazing mike skinner singing? but hes a drummer ohh well but seriously kids if anyone knows a band thats looking for either hola back
=YOU SUCK MY DICK, and i'll eat your pussy.=

wheels

2003-07-17T12:48:29Z

last night was really cool me and paull were going to go down to the beach so he could see a certain someone but she never called back so then we called up ol travis and said "hey what are you doing?" and he said "nothing but meet me at 7-11 at 10:10 and well find something to do" so that we did and then christal and josh h were there and we stood there for like 45 minutes trying to think of something finally chrystal said " hey lets go o my house make panancakes and play mario kart!!! well i was all for that and then thats what we did it was nice completely off the subject isnt nice to not know what being happy feels like? so for all you happy people out there with your fun and your more fun.....FUCK OFF i hate you i hope you all die and burn in hell, lets see how happy you are then.

imreallyugly @ 2003-07-15T07:40:00

2003-07-15T12:54:03Z

fuck today it fucking sucks i wake up this morning to my mom bitching at me so to get her to shut the fuck up i said i didnt have to work today so then she comes back and said if you dont have to work then you have to do laundry? so i go to work and my dad starts bitching about how i give up on everything i do fuck him i started modeling for him im going to school in the fall, oh and he goes "your on your own?" wtf if i am sweet but as soon as i start packing they wont let me leave fucking this fucking day it sucks

imreallyugly @ 2003-07-07T08:13:00

2003-07-07T12:16:31Z

today is work no sleep last night very tired very lonely

places id rather be

2003-07-03T12:31:28Z

7yrs old playing with the xmen toys my mommy just bought me when we lived in alabama

walking on th train tracks in nashville with nick hoppkin in the 6th grade summer

drinking tea on a fram with an in virgina when i was 6

walking on the beach with colin and brian the certain day

dying matts hair blue at someones house

in a coffin for the rest of eturnity

being in all of los angles

ecs in 8th grade it was so fun

all these moments made be happy they were so fun i wish i was there now but im stuck here with nothing alone...

my love

2003-07-01T00:39:36Z

come back please i miss you alot you say july 7 thats to far away come back now lay in my bed and let me hold you please?

freakin weekend

2003-06-30T13:02:10Z

well this weekend kinda sucked spent like 60 bucks on a motel cause i didnt want to go home i fucking hate my job so much goddamn i dont think i was made for any other reason than to play music or maybe im lazy? i miss jessika i wish she would come home i miss katie i wsh she would come home too im miss feeling normal i miss half my clothes that i cant findpaull is in orlando for the week visiting his family hope he has fun im gonna miss him soon wish summer wasnt such a bitch to me she goes "man i really need a room mate!" im like "hey i need a place to live" and shes like " man i sure could use a roommate" and im like "hey im homeless" and shes like i just get one of my friends to move in" ???!!!??!?!?!??? wtf betsy is a very nice girl im glad that she is here loren is happy well i gotta go to work :(

drinking

2003-06-26T19:15:32Z

im not going to drink for a long time last night makes me want to commit suicide i hated it paull happy birthday fuck im to fucking depressed to even talk about it

friends girlfriends

2003-06-23T18:22:15Z

my friends girlfriends are stupid as fuck and no this time im not talking about rachel this time first off you dont know shit about me like i have girls around me all the time fuck you i dont talk to any girls and im annoying ive never had a conversation with you so fuck you im a bad influence fuck you i hate you both and if i cant make it any clearer then im talking about tonya fucking cunt and jen fat bitch fuck you both you dont know my last name fuck you ive never been anything but nice to you both

yesterday and today

2003-06-19T12:55:16Z

well, yesterday was cool, i didnt have to work. Me Loren Paull and Critter were chilling at the crid when all of a sudden Ryan showed up! well we all decided to go to ryans house and play. that we did, we made prank calls, we drank coca cola and sprayed druster fluid on each other. then a girl called that we thought was Betsy, she told us to go to the Naples mall, so we did. It turn out to be a stupid little bitch and all her little friends i use to kinda talk to this girl who lived in Naples and then we stoped, now her friends harass me and ive really just been trying to forget her because i liked her alot so that put me well kept me in the mood im in. then i headed home when youll never believe who called.... SUMMER G. ohhhhh yeah, she asked me to go to barnes and nobles tonight after i get off work so i will any chance i get to see her well im going to smoke a cigerato and go to work
-me-

my love

2003-06-16T12:31:29Z

i know you well, well enough to know i love you. everytime im with you i want to touch you, i can smell you on me sometimes and thats when im ok. i hate you not being here every moment of my day. i love you so much it makes me cry when you leave me. i wish i could just tell you. but i never will i hate this god awful world, it makes me sick to know tha i can sit and think about you all day have your picture in my wallet but cant have you i hate this to me you are perfect you always have been i try to move on but i cant i never will be able to i hate when we fight makes want to throw up i love it when we laugh makes me want to eat a watermelon but i guess youll never know, cause ill never tel you...

fuck the subject

2003-06-15T23:39:56Z

i hate you, you stupid faggot you wana talk shit to my face and expect me not to do shit youll get yours you stupid bitch im going to take a gun to your head and pull the fucking trigger one shot. im so fucking dead on the inside and im tired of pretending like im happy its fucking stupid every smile i make is fucking fake no more, no more fucking fake smiles i cant wait another second to leave this fucking place the only comfort i have is beer so fuck that im done with everything dont call...
fuck -me-